When Did You Realize You Were A God/Goddess?

Hetepu (Peace & Blessings) Family.
When did you realize you were a god/goddess? What was the first successful magick/miracle you performed that convinced you of your divinity?
For me, although I had heard people all over recite Psalms 82:6  which states: “I have said, Ye are gods; and all of you are children of the most High.” And, John 10:34 that says “Jesus answered them, Is it not written in your law, I said, Ye are gods?”  I was not convinced that I was a god because I did not have any experience that supported this belief.

I didn’t realized I was a god until I studied the Maa Aankh cosmogram and understood that the flesh part of me, the physical part of my being, or the sahu (subconscious) part of my being is not the whole me.  Although I walk around and conduct my day-to-day affairs through my sahu out of habit, it is not only the physical manifestation of me but a very limited and minute part of my entire being. Hidden from physical sight is my more powerful and advanced spiritual self called my BA (Superconscious).
I remember that when it finally dawned on me that I am the Divine Being and that one part of my being is known (the sahu part), while the other part of me is an unknown mystery (the BA part).  It immediately made sense to me that the reason we all have so many problems in our life is because we try to solve our problems based upon our subconscious, habitual and conditioned sahu understanding personified as Set; instead of tapping into the Superconscious, infinite and unconditional BA personified as Osar (Asar, Ausar, Osiris).
In other words, the BA is the part of me that performs magick and miracles, which I will never understand because as soon as I comprehend it, that is when the magick and miracles ceases.

God allows magick to work, to show you that it is possible. – Unknown

I remember the first time, I tested my theory, I was unable to walk due to an illness and I had read a story of how a lady healed herself by promising to take Lazarus (Lazaro) statue’s crutches away from him.  Upon reading the story, automatically I heard thoughts of how this lady’s story was fake, silly and stupid. Immediately, all sorts of thoughts rushed my head about how ridiculous and impossible it would be to heal myself by taking away the crutches of a statue. I quickly identified this voice as my ego-self, my sahu personified as my Set, which only believes in what it sees and has been conditioned to accept as truth based upon my family and society’s standards.

When I did the little ritual to heal my body so that I could walk again by focusing on dancing and remembering that when the Yoruba orisha Babaluaiye was healed he danced out of sheer joy and excitement.  It was strange and weird to have the image of an old white man with crutches before me, but when I made the same promise to take away the crutches when I was healed. That is when it became apparent that the strangeness of the ritual triggered the Higher part of my being.  I know the ritual triggered it because I could feel my spidey-sense (scalp of my head) tingle.   That is when I realized that the BA does not distinguish between black and white images, which is something that a lot of people get hung up on because we like to see images of our selves instead of others. The BA understands that everything was Spirt and that Lazarus (Lazaro) symbolized that energy cannot be created or destroyed, it can only be transformed like the soil of a cemetery becomes resting spot or container for departed souls. Therefore, Lazarus is Sokar, the Kemetic lord of the cemetery, which some also call Sekert (the feminine energy of death and resurrection), called Lazarus in Christianity also known as Omolu or Obaluwaye (Babaluaiye) the son of Nana Buluku.

Yes, my Higher Spirit knew this and even though I did not know how this miracle/magick was going to work.  This Higher part of my being understood it because as the Swiss psychiatrists stated, It is composed of “collective unconsciousness.”  This in strict laymen folk terms means “spirits” and when I issued a command  for the higher part of my being to accomplish the task of making me walk. I realized that it could work on multiple tasks all at the same time, while I live my day-to-day life dealing with other things. Metaphorically speaking, spirits and/or angels are working on my behalf based upon the command issued to them because they are an extension of my true Self.
That’s when it became clear, I am a god and later when I found myself running up and down the stairs because of an emergency. That’s when I realized that I created my own miracle/magick and therefore, I am the author of my own reality.
Family.  We have all been tricked into believing that we are powerless creatures of fate and that this physical reality that we have been born into is final. This thousand year old trick is due to us being taught that God is outside of our being and therefore even when we leave our birth religion.  We superimpose this same belief to other spiritual practices which results in us worshipping our ancestors and worshipping other entities outside of our being.

The truth is that we are powerless if we rely solely upon the sahu part of our being, which is totally based upon what we have physically learned and been conditioned to accept, hence the Right Eye of Ra.
We cannot change our current situation using the same mindset that created them, hence the reason Set is called the Lord of Chaos and Confusion.

The only way to change our reality is by relying upon our Higher Self.  When we rely upon the Higher part of our being, the mystical and magickal part of our being, the BA (Divine Spark) gives us access to the power of the Divine.

All we need to do to change our reality is impress upon our Higher Spirit what we desire and want.
The key that we need to remember is that we need to stop worrying and thinking about how it works and accept that it works. You don’t know how electricity works yet, you are able to use it. The same approaches needs to be taken in regards to our BA.
We need to stop trying to convince and prove to other people that it works and just let it work. Magick is our cultural technology, which we have been taught to be ashamed of because others don’t understand it.
Family. If other people don’t believe it, so what. It is not our job to convince them or try to convert them to our way because our spirituality is not their (or anyone else’s for that matter) religion.
It is your religion, which means all that matters is that you believe it works.
All that matters is that you find a way to temporarily shut your sahu (subconscious) off so that you can access your BA (Superconscious).

 This means work your maa (truth, way)!

So learn how to manifest what you want using candles. Learn how to work with spirits because quiet as kept, this is the Kemetic Way.
Hetepu.